Slow Down

Shoutout to

Hey, everyone!

I hope you are all doing well.

The topic I wanted to discuss today was slowing down. A couple days ago, I found myself having an alarming anxiety attack. While I have always been a spiritual/religious person in the past and as a child, my spirituality deepened when I had a full awakening in 2018. That year was extra hard with work, graduate school, relationships on all levels, and just feelings of anxiety and mental unwellness. Anyway, I have not experienced quite a scary anxiety attack since that year, so I was confused as to why it was happening. I found myself taking deep breaths in an attempt to ease those feelings away. The clock read 1:30 am. I had a doctor’s appointment that day at 7am and I thought, Not now.

I eventually calmed down since anxiety attacks peak within 10 minutes and then die down. I set my alarm for 5:45 am, so I could have enough time to get dressed and arrive on time. I had a rather stressful day the day before and was worried about a million other things, so it’s no surprise that I had an anxiety attack. High stress can exacerbate mental illnesses and again, please seek help from a professional. I firmly believe there is a difference between seeking help when an illness is worsening versus when you need to pray about something.

So, I eventually fell asleep and that morning I woke up at 5:26 am on the dot. I had an urge to pick up my Bible and read from my favorite book, Psalms and pray. As I prayed I offered up all the emotions I had been feeling: stress, anxiety, fear, hurt, pain, and anger. I gave it all up. Although I had an appointment at 7 am I checked my local library’s website to see if they were open. Due to coronavirus I was not sure when they would open and to practice safe social distancing and keep ourselves and others safe, many places were attempting to reopen (wearing masks, cleaning, limiting the number of people in a building). My local library was and was offering one hour time slots so that people could come in. I was so happy! I signed up for a slot at 9am, the earliest, I didn’t know how long my appointment would take, so I thought I signed up for a time that was for tomorrow, however, it turned out I signed up for today. My appointment took less than 5 minutes and I returned home to workout and then shower and come to the library. My favorite section to read from as of right now are spirituality/self help, and romance (IM HUMAN OK). So I found myself walking down the aisle, but my body automatically knew where to go. It was like my feet were guiding me not my mind. I walked down there and my feet just stopped, my head turned to the left and in the Buddhism section a title with the words ‘Slow down’ caught my eyes. I grabbed it. I turned to the right and then the left and I kept walking down the aisle. Of course, by no coincidence, every single book that caught my eye had the words ‘Slow down’ and I did. I actively slowed down my body, my walk, my pace, my breath, and my heartbeat followed. I checked as many books relating to slowing down and staying in the moment.

I was overjoyed. God answered me. I had read a book about intuitive styles before (let me know if you want a post about that), and I was struggling to figure out my own. I figured it out though, mine is emotion and vision. I always knew clairsentient and clairvoyant. I don’t get like crazy visions or something, but I do see signs and symbols or words and I get feelings of calm or anger depending on the environment I’m in and the people I’m around. You may have experience to this and if you do not that is okay! Remember spirituality is different for everyone. I’ll say that until I am blue in the face.

I was thrilled and now that I’m learning how to tap into my intuition, I’m becoming more aware. I believe that we are all born with intuition but sometimes we just don’t develop it and like any new skill, we have to learn to develop it through practice. Anyway, I feel a lot better and more taken care of. I mean, we are all taken care of whether we believe it or not.

I don’t share too much about my personal life, but if you live in a household that isn’t healthy, it can seem like you are not when the people who are supposed to take care of you don’t do their best. That’s how I was feeling. I also recalled all the times I was going through something hard and somehow a miracle showed up in my life. I truly was too focused and in a low vibrational state of being. As soon as I asked for guidance low and behold it showed up.

I encourage you guys who are feeling extra drained to ask for guidance too. It doesn’t have to be to God, but whoever or whatever resonates with you. If there is an area in your life that you are struggling with I encourage you to tap into your intuition and ask for guidance. I’m sure you will get a sign.

As always take care!

Love,

Stephanie