Resisting the Resistance?

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Hey, guys!

How are you doing? I’ve been doing a little thinking, meditating, and reading. Something that’s come up for me is resistance. Resistance comes in different forms in our reality. It can represent blocks within our emotions or unhealed trauma. As far as my spirituality goes, I don’t believe in the idea of blocked energy or chakras. I know many people do and I am not saying the idea is wrong or discrediting it. The reason I choose not to subscribe to the idea is because I have a more logic and science driven mind and there are some beliefs that don’t resonate with me. Considering, I still do hold onto some beliefs from Catholicism, I just feel like one resonates with me over the other. Again, like I said before, spirituality is different for everyone and that’s what’s so cool about it. I want to reiterate that I do not look down on anyone who has spiritual beliefs that are completely different than mine. Different is good! In fact, I’m glad to share my perspective because there may be other people who resonate with some ideas and not others. I’m here to say that whatever you believe in, as long as you are not harming yourself or others, is totally okay! 🙂

Anyway, resistance to me represents aspects of myself that I can work on. The areas I’ve seen resistance show up is in my family relationships, and romantic relationships. For me, this period in quarantine has brought a lot of that up emotions regarding my childhood, understanding where I have unhealed trauma, and aspects of myself that I can improve on.

The common themes that emerged for me during meditation and prayer include forgiveness, trust, and receiving.

This is what resonated with me:

Forgiveness: The hardest thing to do. Forgive. Forgiveness to me means letting go and acknowledging that other people’s shortcomings are not a result of you. It’s because they are dealing with resistance within them they have not worked through. To truly forgive someone means that if you remember why they hurt you, you don’t hold it against them. You don’t wish them ill will. It doesn’t hurt you anymore. It’s your strength. This is especially hard when the people that hurt you the most are your family or people who you thought were supposed to care for you. You might notice your heart beat quicken, your chest close up, your shoulders hunch in, your nostrils flaring, or anger bubbling up inside you or sadness. A triggering emotion. It’s nothing to be ashamed of at all. It just means you have that much more room in your life to forgive. You’re not forgiving them for them, you’re forgiving them for yourself.

Trust: For me this is a hard one. I used to be a very trusting and open person when it comes to forming relationships with people. I’ve also had a hard time trusting God or the universe, that if I jump I will land somewhere. Fear can take a lot of things away from me, but I’m learning that opening yourself up opens up so many opportunities for other love. I’ve been working on building trust in little ways. I think this kind of ties into connecting with my intuition better, but that’s another story for another time. My example was today I came back from the doctor’s and I get nervous sometimes when I drive. I took a turn that I usually wouldn’t take and found my GPS not connecting to my iPhone. The sound wasn’t working either and rather than panic this inner voice boomed in my mind and said It’s okay. I can do this. We’ll figure it out. I’ll get back home. I was calm and learned a new way to get home. I also learned that I can trust. Trust myself, God, your higher self, your intuition whenever we feel lost or scared. TRUST it will be okay. And when our inner world trusts our outer world/God/Universe will deliver.

Receiving: How often do you give away your time, your energy, your emotions, your love, your skills to others who don’t give you half the effort you put into them? LOL. Bye. How many times do you sit down, turn off your phone, spend time for yourself and really stay present? L O L. How many times do you speak up for yourself, your true beliefs, and defend yourself even when no one else is? LMAO. Or how often do you allow others to help you? How often do you ask for help? How often do you let them? How often has someone said ‘Oh, you don’t need to get that for me! Let me get it myself.’ LMFAO. Yeah, all these things count as receiving. Sometimes sitting there and saying I am open to receiving during meditation isn’t enough because there is no follow through. The thing with me is that when I care for someone and love them, I would go to the moon and back for them. So, God has decided to teach me that is a choice. No one is forcing me to, and that is no reason to actually do it. It’s hard, but it’s the truth. Don’t overindulge, but guys, seriously, receive.

That’s all I’ve had for today. Feel free to share what quarantine has been teaching you guys or how it’s been going. I know with things in turmoil it’s hard to find somewhere to remain calm.

As always, be sure to support your local businesses, take time to educate people on BLM, and staying safe and healthy! Also know that donating to shelter who need it and volunteering to help people in little ways is important too!

I love you guys!